Friday, March 9, 2007: a short one
well, its an hour before work starts, and i'm sitting at home doing nothing but blog surfing, so i thought i might as well do something productive instead of clicking away. might as well work all of my fingers instead of just my thumb and index finger right? haha. anyways.
me and debs cleaned the whole house today! :D okay it wasnt really that fun but it was really tough work but the aftermath was good because i feel happy that i put in extra effort to make the house that we live in spanking clean and it feels so fresh! after that we went to barretts (a bakery across the road from where we stay) for lunch because the cleaning workout was just too strenuous for us and we got hungry then. (: i think it was a rather great day today, besides the 8am lecture that i had to go for! that was uncalled for, i'm getting really tired of waking up at 7 to go for 8am lectures
everyday but, i think i'm considered quite lucky cos my friends have to wake up at quarter to 6 (5.45) to catch the bus to school which basically stinks for them so yes, another one of those little blessings from God. (:
yes work starts in an hour! i'm getting my pay today for the last week that i've been working. i have no idea when and how much pay i get, but according to judy i get 13/hour which is quite good salary. it seems like i get my pay every week! which i think is quite a good deal because this will fund this week's little escapade with judy to harbourtown for cheap summer sale shopping! (:
my bad habits of blogsurfing and being envious of others have started again! i think this is one of the things i have to be concious of instead of wondering why on earth did i end up in perth when i could have gone to either jc or ib or melbourne. i think its quite a painful and arduous task to keep reminding myself about how God has different plans for everyone, and the path that He has led me to is being in perth. i think i've been slowly seeing hints of God's wonderful plan unfolding in my life, the little good things that happens that make things right again. so my resentment? i think its my duty to stop being so willful and stubborn, so that i can let God be the center of my decisions and the goal of my direction.
here's something from "Passion and Purity" by elizabeth elliot which reminded me of God's plan for me when i did my qt last night:
"The growth of all living green things wonderfully represents the process of receiving and relinquishing, gaining and losing, living and dying. The seed falls into the ground, dies as the new shoot springs up. There must be a splitting and a breaking in order for a bud to form. The bud "lets go" when the flower forms. The calyx lets go of the flower. The petals must curl up and die in order for the fruit to form. The fruit falls, splits, reliquishes the seed. The seed falls into the ground."
learning to let go,being willing to be taught and disciplined is something that is part of growing up and maturity.
"This of the self that God has given as an acorn. It is a marvellous little thing, a perfect shape, perfectly designed for its purpose, perfectly functional. Think of the grand glory of an oak tree. God's intention when He made the acorn was the oak tree. His intention for us is ".. the measure of stature of the fullness of Christ." Many deaths must go into our reaching that measure, many letting goes. When you look at the oak tree, you dont feel that the "loss" of the acorn is a very great loss. The more you perceive GOd's purpose in your life, the less terrible the losses will seem"
i think, after much consideration,that the opportunity cost of not trusting in his purpose and will for my life far outweighs any other loss.
a shout of praise.
12:04 PM
